wasn’t a week that went by that I wasn’t called up on
the floor because of my behavior , because of my attitude.
“Stanley Clayton, up, front, center.”
conscious memory of sitting there, thinking to myself,
“This is wrong.” And I didn’t do a damned thing to
stand up and say, “This is wrong.”
b. In some cases, income statements may be demanded
from members to ensure that the full tithe is being
c. In by-laws of the group, leadership is protected and
guaranteed input on transition any of power. Also,
in any spin-off of the group, it is usually in the by-laws
that the leader is engaged in all legal ownership of
any assets and can assume them at any time.
issue with separation. People could not leave him. He took it
as a betrayal to the cause, and to him personally.
There are so many thoughts and feelings that come from
inside when caught in the maelstrom of the dysfunctional
group. The key word here is ‘confusion’. Confusion
manifests itself in so many ways but the fruit of confusion
is the inability to act or decide. I have personally talked
to people who have let 10,20,30 years of their life slip by
in a state of confusion. This is the greatest of all crimes.
Is it self inflicted? Oh yes, that is never the issue. But while
it might be one’s responsibility how they react to their
environment, they are to only be blamed partially for
the environment they lived in during that period of time.
The leader is to shoulder the blame in some portion for
creating, promoting and accelerating the dysfunction
– most were only passively reacting to the direction of the
leader and their group. They were willing victims.
them to fight. They gradually defer all decisions to the
leadership and in the end, it is ironically that they say
‘It is not my will, but thine [the leader of the dysfunctional
group] be done…” Remember the characteristics of
Satanic influence is the twisting of truth not the presentation
of an outright lie. Stop and see if this description applies.
some essence they resonate with your personal experience
in some way:
2> You lose your sense of what is normal. In a group your perception is fundamentally altered. This a gradual process and in that process is coercion and the exercise of power over the individual in a collective sense. Meetings of ‘utmost’ importance are called and the edict or revelation comes rolling down from the higher echelons. The result is a galvanized people with one thought and one mind – the leader’s not the Lord’s
I went back to my cottage. All I wanted
to do was see my wife and my son. Gloria
and I were laid down on the cot and we
just held each other and I said, “You know,
I think we may all die.” And she said
— she kind of looked at me and then she
looked down at our son, who was playing
on the floor with the toys, and she said,
“You’re scaring him.” I had literally opened
my mouth to say we need to leave, when
there was an announcement on the
“Will everybody report to the pavilion for
have no tears in her eyes. She just was — was just in a daze. “My mother, my grandmother,
my sister, my brother, they gone.” You know she said, “Just take me. Just take me
and just lay me down next to my grandmamma.” And she went up to that Kool-Aid,
to that death barrel and she just, I mean — didn’t hesitate, just took it and drunk it
and then told me to hold her, to take her, and I did. And she died in my arms. And
once I laid her down and she told me how she wanted to lay with her grandmother,
I — at that point, knew that I didn’t have no reason to be here no more.